We are honored to share a beautiful and thought-provoking poem by community member Lisa Choudhrie, who brings a biblical perspective to the experience of anxiety and depression. In her work, Lisa explores how faith can provide comfort and strength in times of mental distress, reminding us of God’s presence and care through life’s challenges. Her words serve as a powerful reminder that we are never alone, even in moments of depression and anxiety.
Lisa’s poem below invites us to reflect on the importance of turning to God during difficult times, grounding ourselves in His promises.
Heads up!!!
It’s time !!!!
Open doors, let in the light
Can’t go on pretending
That everything’s alright…
Storms in my head-
Auras, surreal beautiful
Pounders- Blinding pain
Lighting, thunder rain…
I’m a migraineur
That’s my new name…
Overwhelming anxiety
Feels as if I’m unprepared for life
And how it’ll hit me…
Worrying ceaselessly
Trying to control
Everything
Everybody
Dreading
Tomorrow
And what it’d bring
Catastrophic thinking
Concerning everything…
Coping, struggling
Easy days and tough
Mood swings weepy spells
‘Black dog’
Life under a grey cloud…
Abysmal darkness
Unending tunnel
No glimmer
No flicker
Of light
Helpless
Hopeless
Given up
No end
In sight..
Severe pain
With nothing to show
No fracture to fix
No surgery required
Crazy behaviour
Hating myself
For being this way
Hurting myself
The ones that I love…
Unable to do
The simplest of tasks
Getting out of bed
Brushing my teeth
Taking a bath…
Everest like
Impossible
Tears unending
Sadness
Blackness
Just crying
And crying…
Being bombarded
Grotesque images
Of all sorts
Trying to function
Hold it together
Paste a smile
Wipe the tears
Blow the nose
One more time…
Half of me
Hating myself
Degenerated state
This shell of myself
While the other half
Unable to
Understand
Comprehend…
Treatment at last
Medicines
Kind professionals
Diagnoses
Counseling
Cloud lifting
Able to breathe
Peace in my mind
Get back to me…
That part of me
Hidden away
Show off
My personality
Pretend
All’s well
Multi-talented
Perfectly…
I mean I’m a doctor
Pathologist, please…
Evidence-based medicine
Not
‘this is how I feel’…
I’m a wife
A mum
Many hats to wear
Perfection demands
Excellence
Everywhere…
But the anxiety
Right there
Can’t think
Can’t breathe
Mind like a washing machine
Stuck
Endless repeats…
Spinning around
The same thoughts
‘so much to do..’
‘how will I do it all?’
And then
‘so much time’
‘what will I do?’
And dealing with people
And their personalities
How to prevent
Arguments
Criticism
Rubbing each other
The wrong way…
‘help….
I don’t know what to do…
Can’t handle this…
Somebody help me please…’
Now I’m older
Greyer
Wiser
Larger in size
Now I know
One life
We all get
Help each other
Not ostracize…
Needless suffering
Silent diseases
Afflicting our mind
We
Our children
Our loved ones
Are one of a kind
Can be affected
Any stage
Any time…
Help those
Who need it
Let them know
They’re not mad…
No place for shame
There’s help available
There’s a name
For what
they’re going through
Just an illness
Of the mind…
Not simply
A ‘loose screw…’
My supportive
Spouse
Been there with me
In the tough times…
Prayed with me
Held me close
Wiped my tears
Never let me feel
I’m a kill joy
No matter what
Hung in with me
Down the lonely roads…
When Jesus walked
This world
Among the many
He healed
A demon possessed man
Cutting himself
Living in the tombstones
This man
Stands out in relief!!!!
Jesus healed him
Sweet release
The man begged
‘ Lord let me
Go with you…’
Jesus said
‘My child, go,
tell the world
What has been done to you’
And I hear
Jesus
Looking at me
Tenderly
‘You’ve been there
Living hell
You know
How it feels…
Go!!
Spread the news
Testify…
Speak out
Loud
Bold’
This is my story
All who read
Pass it on
Be safe places
Listen
Heed
The warning signs…
Lives are precious
Minds too
Gentle souls
Need love
His touch
Jesus the Healer
For
Bodies
Souls
Minds
For
Me and you…
By Lisa Choudhrie
To explore more of Lisa’s inspiring work, visit her blog at https://www.heismindful.blogspot.com.
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