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Managing depression can often feel like an uphill battle. This battle can happen daily and sometimes worsen during a specific time of year. Many people struggle with seasonal depression or seasonal affective disorder, which is  a type of depression that occurs during specific seasons, usually in the fall or the winter.

Certain symptoms include changes in appetite or sleep, feeling tired or having decreased energy, having trouble concentrating or making decisions, or thoughts of suicide or death.

 

My Personal Experiences with Seasonal Depression

I’ve also been feeling the effects of seasonal depression lately, especially in feeling lethargic for most of the day, experiencing significant changes in my sleeping routine, and feeling the weight of grief as I reflect on experiencing another holiday season without my grandfather. 

Even in learning how to manage seasonal depression, I’ve found that there are spiritual practices that can help with finding hope in challenging times. Whenever I feel overwhelmed by symptoms of depression, I read the book of Psalms in the Bible.  The book of Psalms is an Old Testament book and the first book in the third section of the Tanakh. The psalms are heartfelt prayers to God by various psalmists, including King David. The structure of the psalms highlights the importance of cognitive reframing,  a tool that is used in cognitive behavioral therapy, and it involves identifying and changing how you view situations, events, and events. 

Through David’s vulnerability with God in the psalms, cognitive reframing is happening during the prayer. David started in a distressed state and ended with more confidence, knowing that God is with him in those challenging times. There are five specific Psalms that highlight the character of God during grief and the hope that can help us to persevere in our trials due to our connection to God. 

 

We can share our grief with God (Psalm 42) 

Psalm 42 shows us that we can share our grief with God. King David explored this notion of being vulnerable with God about our grievances when he writes, 

“ As the deer pants for the streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. Where can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me all day long, Where is your God?  

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why are you so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God.” – Psalm 42:1-3, 5 ESV

These verses show that David longed to seek God in the midst of his trials and that he knew that God would be there to hear his cries for help. These verses also show that David was not afraid to share his emotions with God. As he stated in the third verse, “ My tears have been my food day and night, while people say to me all day long, where is your God?” This level of emotional vulnerability is how David was able to access the throne room of God in order to gain comfort. By the end of the psalm,  David realizes that even in his lowest moments of grief that God is his Savior and that He gives him the hope that he needs to keep moving forward. 

 

God is our Comforter (Psalm 31)

Psalm 31 exemplifies God’s character during grief. This psalm shows that God is our Comforter and that He is willing to help us in our time of need. David also highlights this when he writes, 

“ In you, Lord, I have taken refuge. Let me never be put to shame. Deliver me in your righteousness. Turn your ear to me. Come quickly to my rescue. Be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me. Since you are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of your name, lead me and guide me. I will be glad and rejoice in your love, for you saw my affliction, and you knew the anguish of my soul.” – Psalm 31:1-3,7 ESV 

These verses show that God is a comforter who knows about our afflictions and is  a shield for those who are brokenhearted. God not only knows our challenges, but He sees our anguish, and He is there to guide us through processing our distressing emotions. Psalm 31 shows that  even when it seems like He’s distant, even when it seems like we can’t hear His voice, God is there in the midst of our pain and suffering.

 

God is compassionate during our grief (Psalm 27) 

Psalm 27 highlights God’s compassion towards us during times of grief. God’s compassionate nature is exemplified through the following verses, 

“ The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my life. Of whom shall I be afraid? When the wicked advance against me to devour me, It is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall.

Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear. Though war break out around me, Even then, I will be confident. Hear my voice when I call, Lord. Be merciful to me and answer me. My heart says of you, Seek his face. Your face, Lord, I will seek. Do not hide your face from me.” – Psalm 27:1-3, 7 ESV

This psalm highlights the fact that God  expresses compassion for those who are broken hearted.  Sometimes when we go through strenuous situations, it could be hard to even fathom that we could go to God about these situations. Even in David’s moments of doubt and anguish, he still recognized that he could turn to God because God would be compassionate towards him. The very end of the psalm says that David is confident that he will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living, and all that he needed to do was wait on the Lord. 

These three psalms not only helped David reframe his view of God, they also helped me to  recontextualize my view of how God shows up for me in my moments of grief. The psalms not only helped me to  understand what it means to be comforted by God, but they also helped me to realize that even in my doubts, anger, or grief, God was there to give me strength during those challenging moments. 

 Reading the Psalms gives me a new level of hope because not only do I know that I can bring my grievances to God, it also shows that God is with me every step of the way. The psalms also show that God is my comforter, my keeper, He’s compassionate, and that He protects my heart during these trying times.

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I stared at the packet, which held all the information about my bipolar diagnosis. I sat on the bed in the mental hospital just after the nurse handed me a thick document containing all the answers to my burning questions. While I read the packet with tears in my eyes, I wondered, “What’s wrong with me?” I didn’t think about what happened to me after I experienced mania for the first time. I immediately thought that this diagnosis dictated my character. 

Reducing Mental Health Stigma

It’s interesting to note that “over 50% of individuals will experience a mental health disorder in their lifetime, making such conditions more common and relatable than previously realized,” yet mental health stigma remains pervasive. 

Think about it: if we saw someone with a broken leg, we wouldn’t hesitate to ask: “what happened to that person?” but when someone mentions that they’re struggling with severe depression, we ask: “What’s wrong with that person?” 

Demonizing mental health conditions perpetuates the stigma surrounding them. In order to provide support to those who are struggling to manage mental illness, we should practice three fundamental steps in breaking the mental health stigma.

 

1. Create More Safe Spaces to Speak About Mental Health 

Dealing with a mental health condition can be isolating, so it is important that there are safe spaces for additional support. My support system helped me process my diagnosis and gave me the encouragement that I needed to effectively manage my condition. We can create these safe spaces by eliminating shame and loving one another. Being vulnerable with one another about our experiences helps to provide validation and hope for dark times. 

As James 5:16 NIV states, “Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.” This shows that having a safe space that fosters vulnerability and connection can help to remove the harmful mental health stigma associated with mental disorders.

In fact, according to psychologist Rebecca Leon, “For many people, feeling like they are part of a community can be a powerful source of emotional support and validation. Safe spaces allow individuals to connect with others who share similar experiences and who understand the unique challenges they may be facing.”

 

2. Intentionally Do More Research About Mental Health Conditions 

After I was released from the hospital, I had no idea what I needed to do in order to manage my bipolar diagnosis. Thankfully, my mother did the research and bought some books (one of them being “Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder by Julie A. Fast) that provided the context and tips for learning how to manage my bipolar disorder. 

Before making assumptions about what might be wrong with someone, try to research the effects of mental health conditions on a person’s life. Doing research can have a significant impact on breaking the stigma and supporting others who might be struggling to manage their mental health. In fact, “by educating ourselves, we can become better allies to those around us who may be experiencing mental health challenges.” We can provide support, empathy, and access to a network of information if we learn how to prioritize mental health education. 

There are various helpful resources for mental health education including the National Alliance of Mental Illness, Psychology Today, and Black Mental Health Alliance to name a few. These resources not only provide education. They also create connections to different treatment plans and mental health professionals. Sharing these resources can help to connect those in need to proper mental health treatment programs. You can find even more resources on our Mental Health Resources page.

 

3. Start Humanizing Those Who Struggle with Mental Health Conditions

It took me a while to get comfortable with sharing my experiences with bipolar disorder. I was prepared to be scrutinized and ostracized by those close to me and society as a whole. After sharing my manic episode with my inner circle, I was met with compassion and understanding. These reactions helped me to feel more confident in sharing my journey with others. 

People with mental health conditions are often judged because of the preconceived notion that they have a character flaw due to their illness. It’s unfortunate that “one in five adults in the U.S.—around 47.6 million people—experience mental illness. Less than half seek treatment.” This shows that while mental health awareness is growing, there is still stigmatization in workplaces, churches, schools, and many more areas in the public sector. 

In sharing my story, I learned that my diagnosis does not define my character or what I can accomplish in life. Showing empathy and encouraging those who are managing mental disorders can help to increase support and motivate those individuals to seek the treatment that they need. 

By creating more safe spaces, prioritizing research about psychological disorders, and empathizing with those who struggle with managing mental health disorders, we are able to shift the conversation from “What’s wrong with you?” to “What happened to you?” As Ephesians 4:32 NIV states, “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Breaking the stigma starts with showing compassion to those who are struggling with mental health.

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This prayer is dedicated to the Black community – my Black brothers and sisters who are in need of healing from racial trauma. We often forget the importance of uplifting each other when we feel broken. We must speak truth when lies seem more prevalent. For decades, we’ve experienced segregation, slavery, police brutality, and the denial of basic human dignity. These trials not only helped to make us stronger. It also resulted in a vivacious movement that granted us equal rights. There is still more work to be done. 

 

 

Mental Health in the Black Community

We need to address mental health in the Black community, especially in the Church. It’s disheartening to know that “only one in three Black Americans who need mental health care receives it. In addition, Black people with mental illnesses, particularly bipolar disorders, schizophrenia, and other psychoses, are more likely to be incarcerated than members of any other racial/ethnic group with similar conditions.” This shows that there is heavy stigmatization concerning mental health in the Black community. While church can be a viable option, there are certain stigmas that are also pervasive in those spaces.

 

Dear God

Prayer for Unity

Lord, I pray that we come together as a community and reignite faith in the mental health sphere. I pray that we don’t have to hide behind the mask of being “strong” or fear being labeled as “angry” or “aggressive” when we try to express the deep-rooted anguish that comes from the unrelenting racial tension in America. 

Prayer for Your Guidance

Lord, I pray that we embrace who you created us to be and walk in the abundant life that Jesus died to give us. Jesus, I admire your heart for justice. When you saw that something was wrong, you spoke up about it. You turned over tables, cursed Pharisees, and silenced false accusers. Jesus, you fought for the disadvantaged groups. You spent time with people who were deemed “worthless” by an oppressive regime. Let us follow your example. Help us to see that true justice comes when we uplift one another rather than placing judgment on those who are struggling. 

Prayer for Your Understanding

Lord, I pray that you help us to see that “The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18). Help us to realize that talking about our struggles with mental health is not weakness but that vulnerability is our greatest strength. Lord, help us to understand that you care about our hearts more than our accolades. Gaining justice at the expense of internal freedom is not justice at all. 

 

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Thank You, Lord

Jesus, I thank you for allowing me to recognize that there are no racial barriers in your love for us (Romans 8:38-39). I thank you that I can cry out about the need for healing in the Black community and have the assurance that you’re listening. Please forgive us for believing that managing mental health made us weak and “crazy.” Forgive us for being quick to judge others when they share their experiences with managing a mental illness or dismissing those experiences with spiritual euphemisms

We need to restore unity in the Black community in order to create safe spaces for processing mental health. We need to encourage one another to seek help from mental health professionals when we need additional support. Instead of vilifying our people who struggle with mental health conditions, we need to come alongside them and intercede for them in prayer. We need to normalize compassion rather than division. We need to encourage empathy rather than pressuring each other to be strong all the time. Help us to seek your face, Lord so that we can start to heal together. 

In Jesus’ Name, I Pray, Amen.

 

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“I come as one but stand as 10,000.” – Maya Angelou 

Two years ago, my mental health changed drastically, and my mental health journey began. On January 4th, 2021, I had a severe manic episode, which led to my hospitalization. I was frantic, speaking rapidly, and I felt rejuvenated even after getting two hours of sleep per night. While I felt invincible, my family knew that something was wrong. 

After being released from the hospital, I got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder and had to face a new reality. I needed to familiarize myself with a new level of functionality. To say that it was difficult to receive that diagnosis would be the understatement of the year. 

Learning how to maintain my faith in God and embrace my culture while I manage bipolar disorder seemed daunting at first. But over time, I learned four valuable lessons that helped me appreciate my healing and mental health journey even more. 

 

#1: It’s important to build my hope on a strong foundation

As a woman of faith, I learned that my hope is stronger when I place it in God’s hands. 

During difficult times, I also found it helpful to reflect on what God brought me through. These moments of reflection highlight the power of God and His providence in my life. Jeremiah 29:11 (ESV) is a perfect reminder of this. It states, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” This verse carried me through moments of despair because I believed in God’s plan for me. Despite the diagnosis, I believed that God was working everything out for my good. 

In my experience, faith can play an essential role in mental health because it establishes the perfect foundation for hope. 

Hebrews 11:1 (ESV) says, “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” This shows that faith is the source of hope and that hope goes beyond what we can see. Having a bipolar diagnosis made me realize that I can’t go through this healing journey on my own. Even in the darkest moments where I doubt that I can make it, my faith in God shows me that I can trust in God’s plan for my life.  

Stigma in the Black community

Having faith increases hope because it helps you to understand that you are not alone and that your purpose is greater than the pain. In fact, faith is a powerful tool for healing in the Black Community. According to a study by Dr. Thomas Vance at Columbia University, “in the Black community, there is often difficulty acknowledging psychological difficulties, but useful strategies including religious coping and methods such as pastoral guidance and prayer often are the most preferred coping mechanism.” 

 

 

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#2: Cultural competence is necessary for mental health treatment plans 

As a Black woman, I didn’t have a blueprint for how to manage my mental health condition. There were no examples of navigating a mental health journey. In the Black community, mental illness is often seen as a weakness. Dr. Thomas Vance also notes in his study, “These ideas often lead people to believe that a mental health condition is a personal weakness due to negative stereotypes of instability and attitudes of rejection. Because of this lack of information about mental health issues in the Black community, it is not always clear when one may need it or where to find help.” 

Given this context, I didn’t know how to advocate for cultural competence in therapy. Cultural competence is very important in therapeutic services because it helps people to connect with their culture and how it affects their mental health.

After having a therapist who understood my experience as an African-American woman, my racial trauma was understood and explored rather than minimized. My racial identity was affirmed and even elevated in light of biblical ideals, and I felt more comfortable about voicing my experiences with racial inequality (i.e. microaggressions in previous workplaces, navigating colorism and the fear of not being loved for my dark skin, and discussing the implications of being black and have bipolar disorder). 

Culturally competent therapists are an essential component of the healing process for people of color. 

 

 

#3: Surround yourself with a community that shows up for you 

Developing a strong support system takes a lot of work, but it helps you realize that you don’t have to navigate your mental health journey alone. 

While I lost a few friendships after I shared my diagnosis for the first time, I also gained some valuable relationships despite my bipolar diagnosis. Being a mental health advocate wasn’t something I signed up for, but it is one of the greatest joys that I have. It validates my story, and it also makes my testimony greater. I would’ve never imagined that I could share my faith and mental health journey with people from different parts of the world. I am grateful for the opportunity to blaze the trail for people who are dealing with mental health conditions, people of color, and women who want to learn more about their diagnosis but don’t know where to start.

Having a strong community behind you can help to encourage you to keep going. Through managing all the ups and downs, my community was able to show up in ways that I never thought were possible. In addition to my inner circle, there are other mental health advocates and organizations who appreciate my story and want to form a connection with me. We are able to break the stigma surrounding mental illness together. It is such an enriching experience.

My close friends, family, online community, spiritual mentors, and fellow mental health advocates played a crucial role in my healing journey. I wouldn’t trade those relationships for anything in the world. 

 

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#4: Make self-care a priority

Embracing self-care helped me to dismantle the facade of the “strong Black woman” who doesn’t crumble under pressure. 

Before I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I put self-care on the back burner. I took on many responsibilities and pushed myself to be perfect. As a result, my mental health got worse, and I ended up in the hospital. I believed the lie that my worth stems from my accomplishments and how resilient I could be. 

While I was in the hospital, God made it clear to me that I needed to prioritize rest and self-care. Rest is important to God. Not only did He model resting after work in Genesis 2:3 (ESV), Jesus also extended an invitation to rest in Matthew 11: 28 (ESV): “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

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Examples of self-care

Self-care doesn’t have to be fancy. Self-care can simply be doing something that you love or doing the essentials in your healing routine, like going to therapy, taking medication, or keeping track of what has or hasn’t been working for you. Dedicating time to take care of yourself can do wonders for your mental health. Another component of self-care is self-compassion. 

I always thought that self-compassion was selfish or prideful. After experiencing my own challenges with trying to appear like I had it all together, I learned that you can’t give from an empty cup. You can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. 

I’m not perfect, but I’m learning to love myself a little more each day. Self-compassion is the greatest act of kindness that you could ever do for yourself. I see myself as a woman who fought hard for her healing and is still making strides toward her purpose. It’s not easy, but loving yourself is definitely worth it. 

 

Conclusion

Managing bipolar disorder and embracing my culture showed me that God’s faithfulness will prevail, even in the worst circumstances. It also showed me that my voice is valuable and that there are people out there who need to hear my story. These lessons did not come overnight. Through two years of battling severe mood swings, figuring out the right treatment plan, reconciling my culture with mental health, and strengthening my faith in low moments, I am where I am today because of God’s grace. 

I can say, like the Apostle Paul said in 2 Corinthians 12:9 (ESV), “But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

Having bipolar disorder not only helped me to depend on God more, but it also indicated that during my weak moments, Jesus always shows up with His strength.

 

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Dear Bipolarity, 

I wish I could say that it was love at first sight, but you crept into my life with no warning. In January of last year, you wrestled with me and showed me that I needed to slow down. You gave me a severe manic attack with psychosis, and you took me to the hospital, where I had to spend over two weeks wondering what went wrong. At the time, I was angry with you. I wanted you to leave and allow me to live the life that I had before you came. I now realize that your presence was the greatest act of love that God could have shown me. 

When you came, I was terrified. I wanted to know if I would ever be the same again. You presented yourself as an unwelcome guest, snooping around my mind like a cat burglar. I knew you were there all along, but I ignored you. I refused to get the adequate help that I needed because I didn’t want to acknowledge that you were real. In my teenage years, you tried to introduce yourself to me through constant mood swings and extreme emotions. I attributed it to hormones and puberty, but you remained constant in your mission to introduce yourself to me. 

After my college graduation, you decided that it was the right time to make yourself known. I was a mess when you came. With no warning, you changed my life for the better. After I got back on my feet and started undergoing my treatment plan, you were there waiting for me to get better. Through all of the pain, denial, stress, and late nights of wondering where life went wrong, you stayed with me and never let me go. 

Bipolarity, you allowed me to learn something new about myself. You invigorated a sense of advocacy within me. You helped me realize that I can use this pain to help people who are going through the same process. You helped me find community when I thought I didn’t have anyone who understood what I was going through. You helped me deepen the bonds that I had with close friends who had their own experiences with you. In hindsight, you enriched my life in a way that no one else could. I always wondered why God allowed us to meet. It seemed like an unfortunate circumstance in the beginning, but now I’m learning that my life wouldn’t be the same if you didn’t show up.

Rough Edges wouldn’t exist if you weren’t here. My community wouldn’t grow if you weren’t here. My relationship with God wouldn’t be what it is now if you didn’t come into my life. For all these things, I am eternally grateful to you because you made it happen. I can have hope knowing that I can make a difference in someone’s life. Thank you for showing me that I have a greater purpose. 

Even two years later, you are still showing me how I can prioritize self-care. You also showed me that God’s faithfulness will prevail, even in the worst circumstances. You showed me that my voice is valuable and that there are people out there who need to hear my story. You not only helped me to depend on God more, you also indicated that during my weak moments, Jesus always shows up with His strength. 

Being a mental health advocate wasn’t something I signed up for, but it is one of the greatest joys that I have. It validates my story, and it also makes my testimony greater. I would’ve never imagined that I could share my faith and mental health journey with people from different parts of the world. I am grateful for the opportunity to blaze the trail for people who are dealing with mental health conditions, people of color, and women who want to learn more about their diagnosis but don’t know where to start. 

You also showed me that I don’t need to be afraid to ask for help. Through managing all the ups and downs, my community was able to show up in ways that I never thought were possible. In addition to my inner circle, there are other mental health advocates and organizations who appreciate my story and want to form a connection with me. We are able to break the stigma surrounding mental illness together, and it is such an enriching experience. 

Although you initially seemed like a stumbling block, you are now my greatest asset. Thank you so much for teaching me that there’s more to life than my diagnosis. Thanks for teaching me that my story is valuable and that my life has meaning. 

Sincerely, 

Sarah Fox 

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Christians Experience Bipolar Disorder Too: Balancing Faith and Mental Illness https://christianmentalhealthinitiative.org/christians-experience-bipolar-disorder-too-balancing-faith-and-mental-illness/?utm_source=rss&utm_medium=rss&utm_campaign=christians-experience-bipolar-disorder-too-balancing-faith-and-mental-illness https://christianmentalhealthinitiative.org/christians-experience-bipolar-disorder-too-balancing-faith-and-mental-illness/#comments Thu, 31 Aug 2023 01:55:34 +0000 https://christianmentalhealthinitiative.org/?p=2448 Two years ago, I made one of the most difficult decisions of my life. I accepted an untimely diagnosis of bipolar disorder, which changed my

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Two years ago, I made one of the most difficult decisions of my life. I accepted an untimely diagnosis of bipolar disorder, which changed my life forever. On January 4th, 2021, I had a severe manic episode, which led to my hospitalization. I was frantic, speaking rapidly, and I felt rejuvenated even after getting two hours of sleep per night. While I felt unstoppable, my family knew that something was wrong. 

Following my release from the hospital, I got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 Disorder and had to face a new reality. I needed to familiarize myself with a new level of functionality. To say that it was difficult to receive that diagnosis would be the understatement of the year. 

I was disappointed when the doctor gave me the news. I immediately began to think of potential reactions to this revelation. What would my family think of me? Would my friends still accept me for who I am? What would this mean for future opportunities? Would future employers not want to hire me if they found out? Even as I write this article, I’m wondering what the general response will be. 

With all of these thoughts racing inside my mind, I realized that when life throws you a curveball, sometimes you have to hold on tight and swing for the fences. I want to share four steps that I took to confront the stigma surrounding mental illness and to use my faith as guidance for healing. I pray that these four steps will also help you to face hard things in your own life. 

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Be open to accepting your current situation

After receiving my diagnosis, I knew that there was nothing left to do but accept that fact. Although this seems like a simple solution, it wasn’t my initial course of action. I spent weeks trying to find a different reason for my manic episode. I thought that I was misdiagnosed or that my mental breakdown was a result of stress. Even if these scenarios were true, that didn’t change the fact that I dealt with a psychological condition. 

After getting a second opinion and hearing the same conclusion, I knew that I had to accept the diagnosis and learn more about it. Accepting your reality, especially if it’s not what you expected, is a very hard thing to do. I learned that acceptance is often the first step to beginning your healing journey. This step will take a while to process, and it often requires that you brace yourself for more hard truths along the way. Once my season of denial was over, I asked God to help me engage in radical acceptance so that I could begin to move forward. 

Be vulnerable with your trusted community 

I wish I could say that this step came immediately after the first one, but I would be lying. Having a trusted community is a very important part of your healing journey. This community will help you create a safe space in order for you to share your story with others. I was scared to tell my closest friends because I thought that they would label me as a “crazy person.” I thought I would be shunned by family members because I no longer lived up to their expectations of perfection. 

With all of these fears, I relied on God to help me be vulnerable with the people I trusted. I was surprised at the overwhelming responses of love and support. My friends were so understanding, and they even gave me some extra resources to help me navigate this new journey. If I didn’t let them know, they couldn’t give me what I needed. 

I also found out that I had some friends who were dealing with the same situation, and our relationship deepened as a result of my honesty. Vulnerability is very difficult, especially when you’re used to suppressing your emotions or dealing with everything by yourself. The Bible says, “Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labor” (Ecclesiastes 4:9). We are not meant to go through life on our own. We need a community to help us thrive and encourage us during the dark times. 

 

Have honest conversations about mental health 

Getting a life-changing diagnosis was something that transformed my outlook on mental health. I went from thinking that mental health issues were something outside of my expertise to becoming a mental health advocate and creating a podcast where people can have honest conversations about mental health issues. Now, I’m not encouraging you to share your story with the world if you’re not ready. You can start small by doing research and raising awareness about these issues with others. 

To those who want to help your friend or loved one who is struggling with a mental health condition, I encourage you to ask questions and learn from that person. Ending the stigma starts when you have those hard conversations and when you work to change your perspective on mental health issues. 

To those struggling with a mental health condition, I encourage you to reach out to the people that you trust and let them know if you’re struggling and what your triggers are. Doing so would help them understand that having a mental illness doesn’t make you defective. It means that you’re a human being who is simply going through a difficult time. 

 

Know that bipolar disorder is not indicative of your character 

Having a mental health condition is almost like having a physical illness. Just as you take antibiotics to help with a cold, you also take antidepressants to mitigate depression. The last step that I had to take in ending the stigma is to realize that my diagnosis does not define me. This was a difficult lesson for me to learn because I believed that I was worthless due to my bipolar disorder. This couldn’t be further from the truth. Although I have a mental illness, that does not make me a burden. I am loved, I am seen, and I am known by God. Nothing, not even a diagnosis, can change that. 

Once I realized that my worth wasn’t tied to my bipolar disorder, I began to work on helping others realize their worth. Creating the  “Rough Edges Podcast” not only gave me the platform to educate others about mental health issues, it also helped me to empower those who are struggling to value themselves. 

None of that would’ve been possible without me knowing my identity in Christ. If you are feeling jaded and are questioning your worth in light of having a mental illness, I want to encourage you that you are more than your diagnosis, and your life has meaning beyond your mental health condition. 

Managing a mental health condition is challenging. Although there is initial uncertainty when developing a good treatment plan, it’s possible to thrive while having mental health issues. You are stronger than you think and more capable than you know. Working to end the stigma starts with you. By having open conversations, trusting your community, and learning to value yourself, you can begin to thrive in your healing journey. You can do hard things and you can heal through this condition. 

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